Eh, it seems my bpd is about the same. The only ups I have, however, are intense anxieties and intense rages. The intensity is what comes and goes. It's either catatonic molasses or feelings too intense to cope with, or both all at the same time. I seem to remember the mania being more 'in the zone' and productive, but that was a younger age, on different drugs. Not that it was ever good, just slightly more productive... Kind of. Oh, who am I kidding? I dropped in and out of high school and uni over and over, and those were the most productive years. Ah, perspective. It stings. I'm 33, I would have given up a long time ago in darker days, I'm not too concerned about calling it quits. Never give up, never surrender! (i should submit that in the kick ass movie lines thread)
Still, I propose a mountain top paradise, or an island, (but it has to have mountain tops. Hell, let's take over Hawaii) and turn into a bipolar colony.